Tuesday, January 31, 2012

How do I feel today?

"Alone, I am drunk on my thoughts; in company, I am sober again. "

Monday, January 30, 2012

So true

They say what doesn't kill you, it only makes you stronger...this is so true, so true

Friday, January 20, 2012

After the snow

The dirt in the human spirit is hard to clean. But if you keep cleaning, it can change and be purified. Without a doubt humans' spirit can be cleaned.

I am looking around me after the snow storm that filled our cities with slush and dirty roads. The city and the people are out cleaning their cars, streets, sidewalks and driveways. They could've just leave it the way it was after the snow, dirty and messy, yet they knew that leaving it like that, will transform their place of residence in a very unpleasant place to live.
Our soul is in many ways a muddy place that always gets dirty and uncleaned after the many storms that life throws at us. In order for us to get back in feeling alive we should clean our spirit from time to time. This begs the question: what can one do in order to clean his spirit?
My answer is: tune-up your existence, tune-up your life.

Sunday, January 15, 2012


Outside is snowing, yeah I know I live in the Northwwest and is not supposed to, but yeah it does from time to time. My job hunt gives me sporadic results here and there, nothing for sure yet. This snow reminds me of Romania...my old country. I look back and I see so many changes in my life...I stop categorizing them in good or bad, they are just changes; however for some reason I feel that this year is the beginning of my other half of life, some drastic changes are about to happen or I will make them happen, bringing different people in my life, buying new things, getting a new lifestyle...hmm strange

Thursday, January 5, 2012


Another day at work, more and more I keep asking myself what the point of all this? Year after year the same things over and over again. My Fudoshin is very low these days and this is not good. For those not knowing what fudoshin means - The immovable mind that cannot be disturbed by confusion, doubt, or fear. Fear and confusion I have not, but doubt I am full of it. I doubt the value system in our society, I doubt the direction in which humanity moves, I doubt myself in knowing the essence of life.
Very crappy day for me....

Monday, January 2, 2012

A new beginning...

A new beginning...here we are, we just stepped into the new year. New resolutions, new dreams that require new approaches, new us, or at least that is what we want to believe.
Many of us are at some sort of crossroads in our lives. Today I sat back and looked at my life, and really thinking thoroughly what I could do better from now on. How can I continue polishing my spirit in becoming stronger and fitter to fight? Sitting down, having an office job, searching for relationships, all these things filled me with laziness and are slowly eating me from the inside. A job is needed, yes, in America a job is the quintessential essence of survival - life is expensive here and you risk on becoming homeless overnight if you are not careful enough. Loneliness and mental solitude are the solution for re-growing your spirit. If you let yourself getting distracted, you risk losing yourself in trivial day to day activities that are useless and drag you towards your doom.
My one plan for this year is getting back into a good mental and spiritual healthy state.